I wrote a post about a month ago about feminine sensuality. I’ve still be keeping up with remembering to take time for my yoni, learning the do’s and don’ts, but I never felt truly connected… Until today.
Today I did something completely out of my comfort zone. I dressed scandalously. Put on my sexiest pair of lace panties, tied a scarf around my breasts (the feeling of soft cloth against my nipples was heavenly), and put on the darkest lipstick. Ladies, we all have that look that makes us feel sexy right? Don’t judge.
Anyway, I lit my incense and turned off all lights. I turned on Papi Pacify and just surrendered to the music. I got lost moving my hips, legs, arms, touching my skin gently. Incorporating simple yoga poses to open up my root chakra.
It was the most meditative state I have ever entered while moving.
And I don’t dance! I’m the awkward one doing the robot in the corner.
But this was different.
It was the most powerful connection with my sensual energy that I’ve ever felt.
When I was done I laid on my yoga mat connecting with my breath and squeezing my pelvic floor muscles. My yoni was pulsating from the energy. I laid there for a solid twenty minutes; just breathing life into my body.
Analysis
Why is it that women are so shamed for loving their bodies? You can’t even talk about your vagina without someone slut shaming. I love my vagina. I think it’s the most scared space I can allow anyone into, and I didn’t always know that but I do now. Maybe that lended to my celibacy. Forced me to get to know what I really wanted.
Certainly forced me to see men beyond the stroke. This journey has truly opened me to a new world of self-confidence. I mean honestly, I’ve never felt more comfortable speaking about my vagina because I know there are probably hundreds of women who have been through the same thing as me.
“I don’t know why, but regular sex isn’t enough anymore. I want something more. How can I be sensual? Not hypersexual, but sensual. I want to connect deeply during sex to have the most incredible orgasm of my life.”
That’s what sparked my journey anyway.
Post script
That Twigs video, Papi Pacify, talk about smoking fucking hot. She has the most interesting way of approaching human sexuality. Although my gag reflex was questioning that whole fingers in mouth thing. (Sorry fellas, we all have our limits)
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